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Are You Still in Unbelief Concerning the Judgment that has Befallen America?

Are You Still in Unbelief Concerning the Judgment that has Befallen America?

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America, the hurricanes that I have allowed are still only warnings compared to what is coming to you, yet they will go down as two of the largest disasters you have ever seen up to this point. I have heard the cry of many who have been involved in these calamities, but I have not heard a large cry throughout this country to repent for its many great sins, such as abortions, racism, witchcraft, divination, occultism, anti-Christ practices, human sacrifice, intellectualism, new age-ism, addiction to alcohol and prescription and illegal drugs, prostitution, homosexuality, adultery, fornication, lust, pride, envy, greed, arrogance, deception, false religion, blasphemy, gluttony, hatred, malice, strife, manipulation, control, busyness, cursing, insanity, confusion, perversion, prejudice, slothfulness, retaliation, anger, unforgiveness, worship of idols, escapism, fantasy, human and sex trafficking, slavery, bondage, complacency, apathy, worldliness, lying, and so on.

The sins of America are a mountain so high only I can measure it!

I died for every one of those sins and would forgive every single one, yet so few ever repent and turn away from their sins because they believe they are a “Christian” and are “good enough.”

THAT IS A LIE FROM THE PIT OF HELL MEANT TO TAKE YOU TO THAT VERY PIT OF HELL THAT BURNS WITH AN UNQUENCHABLE FIRE FOREVER AND EVER?!

I say for you to be holy as I am holy! Without holiness no man shall see My Father, except before the judgment at the great white throne on which He sits. None shall have excuse on that day, when their whole life on earth is played back before them. They shall see sin after sin after sin that they committed against Me. They will also see the many times that they were given the opportunity to know me and accept Me as their Lord and Savior and repent of their sinful ways. The fact is, they loved their sin more than they loved Me and My ways. They have rejected My love and My blood sacrifice; I paid it all. It grieves My heart! I made none of them to cast into hellfire, yet that is what they chose. My Father shall say “DEPART FROM ME, I NEVER KNEW YOU!” and each one will have nothing to say. The time for grace and mercy from Me is NOW, not after the grave. My blood was shed for your sin; I AM the ONLY WAY!

I warn you now, “Christians” that live in America, humble yourselves now before Me and repent of ALL of your sin. I am watching what you are doing, how much you are praying and helping others right now. If you are not affected personally by these catastrophic storms, you should be crying out, praying, and helping in whatever capacity you possibly can. I will not stop these judgments from coming, but I can have mercy and protect those who I will, and your prayers attribute to that end.

Children, there will be a day that you WILL be affected by what is coming. Pray to Me for those that must endure the tests and trials of these storms, also that they will cry out to Me and I will remember you in your day of trouble and shall show you mercy. I will use these temporary inconveniences for My eternal glory.

I, the Lord, would ask you this day:

Are you still in unbelief concerning the judgment that has befallen America?

You now have fires, hurricanes, floods, earthquakes, threats from other nations, and much more, yet your family and friends are living life as usual?

I say this day, not for much longer!

The day still comes when it all will suddenly change!

This will be the day of fire that I have told you of many times.

After this, you will need to live by faith in Me because the dollar shall become worth next to nothing in a short time. After wave after wave of “natural disasters,” the “false flag, kick off event” shall come. I will allow them to begin, but I will end it Myself when My wrath is poured out without mixture or dilution. My people are not appointed to that, but they shall be tried and tested by these events that are coming even now.

Do not put your faith in your “preps.” If you rely on physical things more than Me, I will make sure that all that you have will be taken or destroyed so that you are humbled.

I have said that I will take care of My own and I do not lie, but you must have faith in Me alone.

Stay in constant prayer and communication with Me and allow Me to work My Miracles through you. Prayer in the Spirit is best, because you don’t know how to pray as you ought, but My Spirit knows the perfect prayer always.

My Spirit will be with you until the end!
I AM YOUR HOPE AND SALVATION!

Jesus Christ
Yahushua Hamashiach

by Jeff Byerly

Fresh Outpouring-Streams in the Desert…

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Krystal Beall April 15, 2018 FRESH OUTPOUR….FOUNT OF LIVING WATER…STREAMS IN THE DESERT… JESUS CHRIST➕…. COME TO ME ALL WHO ARE THIRSTY….DRINK FROM THE WELL SPRING OF LIFE….IT IS ABOUT TO GET WORSE…THE WHOLE EARTH WILL SHAKE…IT IS POLLUTED AND INFILTRATED WITH SIN….AND ABOMINATIONS OF EVERY KIND….EVERY EVIL IMAGINABLE AND UNIMAGINABLE ROAMS THE EARTH…MANY ARE […]

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Reiki is Not of God

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New Christian believers repenting and throwing their magic books into the fire!

Well, I’ve been getting nasty comments from Reiki practitioners again, so I guess it’s time to update my thoughts on Reiki. For all of you who have come to this blog to lambast me for saying anything negative about Reiki, I would just say to you, “been there, done that”. I’ve been through the New Age scenario. It’s not like I don’t know what I’m talking about….. I’ve been into the “healing arts” and ” false laying on of hands”, and I can tell you honestly, it’s a dead end road that leads you away from truth, away from Jesus and straight to hell if not repented of.

Mind you, I am not saying anything against you personally, because that’s between you and God….but I am taking a stand against Reiki and it’s practice.  As a previous New Ager…

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WAR IS UPON YOU AS THE MAN OF PERDITION AWAITS HIS ROLE-MY BRIDE, LOOK UP!

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By Julie Whedbee Wednesday, March 21, 2018 WAR IS UPON YOU AS THE MAN OF PERDITION AWAITS HIS ROLE – MY BRIDE, LOOK UP! I’m sure that like all of you who are seeking Father with all you have, the weariness and challenges of this life can be quite overwhelming at times. We all know […]

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Death is on it’s Way to America

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DEATH IS ON ITS WAY TO AMERICAApril 19, 2018

Daughter, write these words down

WAKE UP, WAKE UP, WAKE UP!

Children of America, that time is upon you now. Have you done what I said and gotten your houses in order? Are your garments washed? Have you come before Me because I am coming for a pure, spotless Bride at My return?

NO, My children, most of you have NOT prepared. You are too busy slandering and ruining a sister or brother’s reputation, too busy gossiping behind your own friend’s back, too busy spewing venom at each other. None of this is of Me. Hatred will never be welcomed into My Kingdom. You are following the father of lies and he will take you with him. Where are the fruits of the Spirit? Without the fruits of the Spirit you are none of Mine.

My church, My Bride walks in unity, there is no discord amongst them. They exhibit fruits of the Spirit with no desire to hurt or harm others. Words are very powerful; they bring life or they bring death. The tongue is the smallest member yet causes the most damage to yourselves and to others. Each word you utter is recorded and many of you are bringing condemnation upon yourselves and will put yourselves in hell. WATCH YOUR TONGUE!

Why do you insist on playing this dangerous game on your soul? Instead of tearing others apart, your focus should be on the events unfolding in the Middle East. You are witnessing prophecy unfolding and Damascus will be a ruinous heap (Isaiah 17). What happens in Israel will directly affect the nation of America for you have struck Syria without cause. America, you have turned your back on My Holy Land, Israel. She is the “apple of My eye” and I will recompense all those who go against her.

Children, what is going on there is war. Many innocent people will die because power, greed and thirst for blood is on the lips of your leaders. Each are vying for position of who is the strongest, who is the best. Human life means nothing to them. Your nation is about to suffer for this. I said I would destroy you and My Word never goes void. You are NOT listening, NOT walking in My Ways; NOT in Obedience to My Commands. You continue to sling feces at one another and have paid no heed to My warnings. Millions are about to die and yet you entangle yourselves with stupidity and nonsense. Children, your lives hang in the balance. Many of you are about to perish if you do not stop your foolishness and repent to Me.

America, you have stirred up the pot of My righteous indignation. I AM has given you years to turn from your wicked ways. You have NOT done so and seal your own fate to your own shame. As you have killed countless numbers of innocent babies, children and adults, foreign invaders will kill countless numbers of those in America. You reap what you have sown.

TO THE CHURCH LEADERS WHO PROFESS MY NAME:

Why have you not warned and not preached the full gospel? Why have you led My sheep into complacency, lukewarmness? You have NOT led them as a shepherd should. Do you know how many Pastors, Preachers, Evangelists, Teachers are in hell? My children live in sin, live against My commands because you have told them I am only love and that I will welcome all into My kingdom. You taught them how to abuse My grace instead of telling them that to live by grace they must OBEY Me. It goes hand in hand. Without faith it is impossible to please Me. These children have NO faith yet say they are saved. They are NOT pleasing Me but pleasing and feasting on their flesh, living in sin with no desire to turn from it.

Church leaders, you have sold your souls and pledged your allegiance to government, not to Me. You will have your last chance to repent and it is NOW for tomorrow may never be nigh. I will hold each and every one of you responsible for each child you sent to hell because of your false doctrine. There will be NO excuses. You knew better. Mammon sure looks good on this side of the equation yet your eternity will be in darkness and you won’t take your mammon with you.

WOLVES, WOLVES, WOLVES-DO NOT CALL YOURSELVES BY MY NAME!! I AM THAT I AM IS COMING FOR YOU! REPENT, REPENT, REPENT NOW OR I WILL CRUSH YOU!

America is the home to every abomination under the sun. You disgust Me. I abhor you, you cursed nation. You will never stop so I must stop you. I, the Holy One of Israel, will bring you to your knees. The stench of death will be all over you America. This must happen for you have turned your back on Me and on My Beloved Israel. You say you want peace yet you stir up trouble wherever you go. Your peace children will be a false peace. There will be NO peace until My return—nation against nation, people against people. Distress, wailing and weeping will be the new order of the days. NO prosperity, NO Joy, NO peace; just complete and utter turmoil. America, you love to stir up trouble so trouble I bring unto you.

Sadly, millions die because of the wickedness of leaders. You will be overtaken, overrun. Terror will be the new norm, chaos, mayhem. I gave you Mercy children. I gave you Blessings. I gave you My Son but you have turned your back to Him. You trample on My Son’s sacrifice daily. Your walk on earth is nothing like His was. Children, you love your sins too much so you will perish in them. My Son sheds tears but who really hears the cries of His heart? Who has made their heart a home for Him? Very few have, very few.

Many of you are about to go home but you have NOT prepared yourselves to meet your Maker, Your Creator. Only My Bride will shine! Most of you have chosen unwisely listening to the wolves that have NOT preached the “I AM”–a God of Justice, a God of Vengeance, a God that requires holiness from My children. My Holy Spirit was given to help you in your infirmities, to purge the filth from you, to bring you to holiness, to Oneness with Me.

Do not be deceived-I am the Only one who can create a clean heart and renew a right spirit within you. You are NOT Once Saved Always Saved walking in your filth. You are NOT saved if you believe in the false grace gospel that I allow you to live against My commands. The better covenant I have given to you was that My Son made atonement and bore your cross so past sins would be forgiven. He made a way when there was no way. If My commandments are written on your heart then you live by My laws, My Ways, You Obey Me and follow and walk the same walk My Son walked. How is something written on your heart if you walk in disobedience to it? You call this loving Me? How child how? If you truly love Me, you walk in Obedience and never walk against My commands. So many have believed the lies that a better covenant means “live as you wish”. NOT SO. You can justify your sins to yourselves all you want but will find out how truly wrong you were when you stand before Me and you will stand before Me.

Come out of false beliefs, your sins and repent to Me. Time soon will stand still for all; fear gripping the hearts of many, sorrow as never before, losses too great to mention. I cannot stress this enough.

WAKE UP, WAKE UP, WAKE UP because the hour is late and before it is too late for you. Do you hear the sounds of the war drums? You have played the harlot far too long.

To all, come out from under the lies. Your houses must be in order, death is coming to America. I have had enough of your excuses! I will shake you to the core!

I AM THAT I AM HAS SPOKEN IT AND IT SHALL BE DONE!

(Given to Ms. Sophie on 4/18/2018)

Proverbs 21:23 – Whoso keepeth his mouth and his tongue keepeth his soul from troubles.

James 3:8 – But the tongue can no man tame; [it is] an unruly evil, full of deadly poison.

Proverbs 18:21 – Death and life [are] in the power of the tongue: and they that love it shall eat the fruit thereof.

1 Peter 3:10 – For he that will love life, and see good days, let him refrain his tongue from evil, and his lips that they speak no guile:

James 3:6 – And the tongue [is] a fire, a world of iniquity: so is the tongue among our members, that it defileth the whole body, and setteth on fire the course of nature; and it is set on fire of hell.

Isaiah 56:11-12 “Yea, they are greedy dogs which can never have enough, and they are shepherds that cannot understand: they all look to their own way, every one for his gain, from his quarter. Come ye, say they, I will fetch wine, and we will fill ourselves with strong drink; and tomorrow shall be as this day, and much more abundant.”

Col 2:8 “Beware lest anyone cheat you through philosophy and empty deceit, according to the tradition of men, according to the basic principles of the world, and not according to Christ.”

Luke 6:26 “Woe unto you, when all men shall speak well of you! for so did their fathers to the false prophets.”

Rom 2:5-9 “But after thy hardness and impenitent heart treasurest up unto thyself wrath against the day of wrath and revelation of the righteous judgment of God; Who will render to every man according to his deeds: To them who by patient continuance in well doing seek for glory and honour and immortality, eternal life: But unto them that are contentious, and do not obey the truth, but obey unrighteousness, indignation and wrath, tribulation and anguish, upon every soul of man that doeth evil, of the Jew first, and also of the Gentile;”

Psalm 51:10 10 Create in me a clean heart,O God, And renew a steadfast spirit withinme. 11Do not cast me away from Your presence And do not take Your Holy Spirit from me.…

Matthew 15: 18-20 18 But those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man. 19 For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies: 20 These are [the things] which defile a man: but to eat with unwashen hands defileth not a man.

James 4:8 – Draw nigh to God, and he will draw nigh to you. Cleanse [your] hands, [ye] sinners; and purify [your] hearts, [ye] double minded.

Matthew 5:8 – Blessed [are] the pure in heart: for they shall see God

Jeremiah 17:10 – I the LORD search the heart, [I] try the reins, even to give every man according to his ways, [and] according to the fruit of his doings.

John 14: 23 Jesus replied: If anyone loves me, they will obey me. Then my Father will love them, and we will come to them and live in them.

John 14:15 – If ye love me, keep my commandments.

Luke 11:28 – But he said, Yea rather, blessed [are] they that hear the word of God, and keep it.

Psalms 19:7-11 7 The law of the LORD [is] perfect, converting the soul: the testimony of the LORD [is] sure, making wise the simple. 8 The statutes of the LORD [are] right, rejoicing the heart: the commandment of the LORD [is] pure, enlightening the eyes. 9 The fear of the LORD [is] clean, enduring for ever: the judgments of the LORD [are] true [and] righteous altogether. 10 More to be desired [are they] than gold, yea, than much fine gold: sweeter also than honey and the honeycomb. 11 Moreover by them is thy servant warned: [and] in keeping of them [there is] great reward.

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AMERICA REJECTION OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST – Krystal Beall

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By Krystal Beall

March 21, 2017

THIS IS THE NATION OF AMERICA TODAY…AS A WHOLE…AMERICA YOUR. REJECTION OF THE LORD JESUS CHRIST….TRUST IN MAN…GLORY OF FLESH..AND BANNER OF PRIDE SHALL BRING YOU INTO DESTRUCTION…YOUR PERVERSION AND BEAST SYSTEM SHALL COMSUME YOU…YOU SPENT YEARS AMERICA RAISING AND TRAINING A BEAST…YOU FALSELY BELIEVED THE SYSTEM YOU HAVE CREATED…WAS YOUR FRIEND….YOUR LOVE OF POWER…MONEY AND YOUR LUST AND GREED FOR MATERIAL GAIN…HAS DUG YOU INTO A VERY DEEP PIT….NO MATTER HOW PRETTY YOU DRESS A SNAKE AND HOW NICELY YOU MAY TREAT IT…IT IS STILL A SNAKE AND WILL DO WHAT SNAKES ULTIMATELY DO…BITE THEIR PREY…CHOKE THEM….CRUSH AND CONSUME THEM…AMERICA I JESUS CHRIST WEEP FOR YOU MANY TEARS….MANY TEARS…MY ANGER IS KINDLED AT THIS NATION…YOU REJECT ME…AND MY CHILDREN…MY FAITHFUL REMNANT WHO HOLD FAST TO ME AND PROFESS ME THROUGH THIS BABYLONIAN ABOMINATION….I HAVE WARNED YOU FOR QUITE SOME TIME NOW…I. HAVE COME…

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“WAR IS COMING TO YOUR NATION…IT WILL BURST FORTH LIKE AN OVERINFLATED WATER BALLOON” – Krystal Beall

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By Krystal Beall

Sunday April 16, 2017

THE LORD JESUS CHRIST IS NOT HAPPY…FOR SOME THIS MAY BE HARD TO GRASP OR UNDERSTAND…I WAS UP ALL NIGHT WITH THE LORD IN PRAYER AND IN TEARS….HE HAS WARNED AND WARNED….THAT HIS RECOMPENSE IS COMING UPON THE EARTH…BUT HERE HE SPEAKS OF AMERICA THROUGH ME…
BEHOLD I HAVE WARNED AMERICA FOR SOME TIME NOW THAT WAR IS COMING TO YOUR NATION…IT WILL BURST FORTH LIKE AN OVERINFLATED WATER BALLOON…I LOVE MY BRIDE ..AND MY REMNANT….HOW I AM SOOTHED AND CONSOLED BY HER LOVE FOR ME…I AM BROKEN ONCE AGAIN…AND POURED OUT UPON THE NATIONS OF THE EARTH….AS MANY REJOICE WITH HUNTING “EASTER” EGGS….AND CANDY FILLED BASKETS I WEEP…I WEEP AT THE SIN….AT THE PRIDE…AT THE DABUCHARY….I OFFERED UP MY LIFE ON CALVARY OUT OF MY LOVE….AS MY FRAGRANT OFFERING OF MY LOVE FOR YOU…I AM HURT BY THE LACK OF LOVE AND…

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IT IS TIME TO ENTER MY ARK MY PEOPLE – Stephen Hanson

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Stephen Hanson
IT IS TIME TO ENTER MY ARK MY PEOPLE
4/13/18
37 But as the days of Noah were, so shall also the coming of the Son of man be.38 For as in the days that were before the flood they were eating and drinking, marrying and giving in marriage, until the day that Noe entered into the ark,39 And knew not until the flood came, and took them all away; so shall also the coming of the Son of man be. Matt. 24
91 He that dwelleth in the secret place of the most High shall abide under the shadow of the Almighty.2 I will say of the Lord, He is my refuge and my fortress: my God; in him will I trust.3 Surely he shall deliver thee from the snare of the fowler, and from the noisome pestilence.4 He shall cover thee…

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Voice of the Martyrs..too Big to Fail?

I can only imagine the stories that are hidden from plain view concerning VOM….they make it a practice to hide the truth from the public, especially their donating public, guarding the vast coffers of money that comes rolling in on a daily basis, like a dog guards a bone. Nothing would surprise me anymore about this corrupt corporation operating under the banner of holy Christendom.  I came across the testimony of this man the other day who exposes more of the cankered underbelly of VOM. If you are a donor of VOM, you really should read this:

https://thouarttheman.org/2017/05/21/personal-testimony-regarding-volunteering-working-vom/

Janna Chan at the ThouArtTheMan blog stated that they would like to hear my story concerning the bizarre behavior of management at Voice of the Martyrs USA and how I was excommunicated for trying to simply do my job well. So here it is, I write it down almost 15 years after my relationship ended with them.

I have followed the controversy closely based on my experience.  I know who went to the police and who Tom White’s victim is.  The father I run into on a pretty regular basis.  So here it is in all the details.    To be honest I am an introvert who would, in my flesh, prefer to stay out of the limelight.  However, my conscience drives me to take a stand where I see evil inside the Church.

The story starts in the mid 90’s when my best friend introduces me to the “ministry” by giving me a fundraising mailer that he had received. I trust his judgment and my heartstrings are pulled by the heartbreaking stories I read about inside. I start donating to them regularly and generously as I request to be added to their mailing list. In 2001, my wife and I decide to make a big change in order to be able to help out a cause I believed in. We contact both VOM and Gospel for Asia (another fraudulent “ministry”) and we propose to move to one of these towns where the headquarters are at and have my wife volunteer for a six-month period of time after I find a job to support us. My heart was to try to serve God in a practical way. VOM bites on the offer and we plan a trip to Bartlesville, OK and we place our house on the market. So, we traveled there and met with some of staff and came to a mutual understanding. Houses in our neighborhood sold on a average of 45 days so we expected this to happen fairly quickly. That is not at all how it worked out. In hindsight that was, I believe, the hand of God trying to keep me from making a major mistake but I did not recognize that at the time.

During this time we saw the first red flag which we foolishly ignored. When we met with them they made it clear that they had an over-the-top no smoking policy. They did not want any employees or even volunteers to be caught outside the building smoking. They did not want any visitors thinking that any smokers were involved in any way with their enterprise, not even as volunteers. In hindsight, this priority of putting image over substance was a clear warning sign, as was redefining sin: not by what the scriptures plainly state as sin but by some other standard not found in the Bible. Smoking was talked about as a great sin, while other more insidious things were never mentioned.

At 90 days we switched realtors and lowered the price on our house, but still nothing. I got impatient thinking this was a hurdle to overcome instead of a stop sign from God. In early September 2001 we decided to jump the gun and went back to Bartlesville to find a house to buy. This was against the advice of the VOM contact who told us maybe this is not God’s plan. They were right, though not for the reason that they thought. We pushed past that because I thought we needed to have a change in our life. So we made the trip, found a house we liked very near where Tom White lived at the time, and signed a sales contract with an unusually long 90 days to close. We figured that our house would surely sell by then and everything would work out. We drove back staying in a motel on the way. We woke up in that motel the next morning and the date was 9/11/01. I started to wonder if I had made a big mistake as the economy sank. Our home still did not sell so we had to change realtors again and leave it vacant as we moved to Bartlesville.

Despite the problems we were having we were optimistic that everything would work out in the end. We got settled in and started looking for work. When we had done everything we could, we started doing some volunteering part-time at VOM. We started working with blankets and met a couple of volunteers who were using their vacation time to help out. They became important friends and contacts for things that happened later. My wife found a job and then we had enough income to get by. I became a regular volunteer spending four hours a day in the office. They eventually moved me into the IT department with my background and education. I became friends with another tech there who would become an important part of my story. He was on salary and had worked their for a few years. I was still looking for full time work but finding absolutely nothing. Eventually the IT manager said that “he had rearranged his budget” and that he had created a 90 day half-time contract job for me. I worked there in the afternoons for three months in the spring. The IT manager then told me he made a request to hire me on full time to the VOM board at their next meeting. They voted down that idea which was disappointing at the time, but later I became very thankful that it happened. I did not need to get more involved with what I later came to the judgment was and is a scam.

I went back to doing some volunteering in the afternoons when I did not have any interviews or job leads to pursue. It was during this time that I stumbled upon the second red flag. My tech friend was showing me the software that they were using to track the Internet websites all the employees in the building were accessing. The accounting manager, who was very geriatric, had numerous gay porn websites that he had just accessed according to the log. The tech went to report this to his manager which was their policy. Instead of dealing with the obvious, I overheard the manager chewing out the tech for allowing a volunteer to see what people in the building were actually doing. He was much more concerned with keeping up false appearances than dealing with the reality of internal sin and waste.

We managed to get by financially, even though our house had been on the market now for over a year without a buyer. But then things got worse when my wife told me that she had been having an affair the day before her birthday and 4 days before mine. Things went south that day and stayed that way. The affair started when she got angry at how things were working out. I believe she was angry at God and by extension me as well. She was not the type of personality that was easily tempted by this kind of sin. She was prone to depression and her mood and behavior became erratic. I met with my pastor for counsel and encouraged my wife to meet with our home fellowship leader’s wife. She did, but the help only appeared to last for one day.

The IT manager at VOM was nice enough to recommend me to another international ministry for some project work. This became the second charity that I would work for in the early 00’s. As soon as this project was started, my wife just disappeared. She left for work as normal one day but never arrived. She had taken nothing with her. All of her belongings and clothes were still in our house. It was now a full year since we had signed the papers to buy this house. I received a phone call a few days later stating that she was at her parents house and that she had changed her mind on her way to work to just drive 1,000 miles and run away from her problems. She never even bothered to call her employer and quit. She returned two months later to file for divorce. My hope for a better life while finding a way to better serve God in practical ways turned into a nightmare.

Some people at VOM were supportive and kind. One, when he learned that my wife was back in town, went to have a talk with her. He tried but it did not change anything. Another worker raised some cash for me at his home fellowship group and dropped it off in a paper bag. It was enough to pay bills I had for a few days. It was a dark time and I experienced the kind of grief people do not understand unless they themselves had been through it. Christmas time had come now in 2002 and the IT Manager called me to come to his office because he had a project for me to do.

One of the projects I had worked on during the 90 days was the conversion of the Pastor’s Support database. It was kept on a PC and the size of the database had outgrown the ability for the program to keep up with. They kept having issues with it and it needed to be moved onto an SQL server designed to reliably work with that much data. I completed that project without any issues. Now they had the big database to move for the same reasons: the overseas project database. This was the database that contained the names, places and amounts of all money supposedly spent overseas. They had not allowed me to see any of the data in the Pastors Support database, which is unusual. Normally a contractor would look carefully at all the data moved both before and after the conversion to make sure nothing was lost and that data integrity was maintained. They made it clear that I would never see any of the actual project data for this database as well. This project was different in that they needed some of the structure to be transformed as the way it was laid out was not the most efficient way of designing a database structure. That created a problem where I believe God stepped in.

The problem was that after the meeting I set down to try and figure out how I was going to transform the structure from what they had into what they wanted. I just could not see how to make that happen with the tools at my disposal. I had not run into a problem like that before. I think, in hindsight, that God was keeping me from seeing how to do what they asked for. That caused me to go to a friends house that evening.

He had become a close friend as he went to same church I did and was also going through a divorce. It just so happened that he also was a database programmer and that he knew the IT manager. In fact, he had even worked for him as the manager was once his boss at Phillips. I explained in general terms, without showing him any of the actual structure, what was there and what they wanted to do with it. He almost instantly saw the solution which he tried to explain to me, over and over for sometime. I was still not getting it. Finally I threw up my arms in surrender and told him that I would have to call them up tomorrow and give them the bad news that I did not know how to do what they wanted. My friend told me to hold off of that. He knew the manager and he decided he would call him in the morning and offer to do this himself for free! That was fine with me.

I was not feeling completely comfortable with this offer of work for two reasons: one was that the lady downstairs who kept the top secret information and the IT manager could not stand each other and basically refused to talk to each other unless absolutely necessary. The other was that the IT manager was a database specialist himself. He had originally been hired to help them develop their databases in the first place. He knew how to do the stuff he hired me to do. But I do not recall ever seeing this man doing any actual work, beyond playing with his budget, talking with other managers, giving out orders and taking an occasional phone call. It was the two techs that did all of the work of wiring, dealing with technical issues and keeping everyone’s computer working. I guess he came out of a corporate environment and was used to managers who behave like this. The ministry was small enough that it needed a working manager, which was not what it had. He was making $60K at the time, according to the public 990’s which was more than anyone else in the department, and was a lot in a town where houses are so very cheap. I was relieved to get out of this, even though I could have used the money because I was living in my expensive wife’s house she picked out that I was still paying a mortgage on and I was paying taxes and utilities for the other, vacant house. And so I went to bed.

The next day started out as usual until I got a phone call from the friend I had talked with the previous night. He was both upset and confused at the response he had gotten from the IT manager. His former boss had hung up on him and was so angry that he sounded unhinged at a simple offer of volunteer, free expert help. I was perplexed. At the end of the workday, I received another call, this time from the tech friend I had at VOM. He told me how this manager was yelling and screaming after he hung up on my friend. He ran upstairs and talked with Jim Dau, the CEO. He then ran down to the front desk and put my name onto a list not to buzz into the building. And so I was exiled for trying to do my job. I never heard anything directly from anyone in management. I never tried to get in the building after that. Nor did I ever hear once again from anyone there. The whole thing made no sense to me. VOM management did this in spite of the fact that they knew what was going on in my life. They kicked me when I was already at a very low time of my life. I saw nothing charitable or Christ-like in any of that.

In an attempt to better understand what happened, I sat down with my pastor who is friends with one of Tom White’s family members. He told me that I had been “thrown under the bus.” This was the end of 2002, years before Mark Driscoll made that phrase infamous in church circles. I also sat down and had a meal with the director of the other ministry that I was doing some work for at the time. He has remained a friend and so I explained at length, detail by detail, what had happened and he had no explanation for their actions. I saw it as extremely paranoid and I saw no grace in it. I wonder if the IT manager was merely pissed off that he would now have to do actually do work and talk with the dreaded lady downstairs. When Tom White killed himself almost a full decade later, I recognized that I had actually pierced the thin veneer of false spirituality and fake niceness and had touched on the actual evil substance of the place. Tom was paranoid because he was cheating donors and using those funds to commit a terrible, secret sin. VOM management is a white-washed tomb full of sickness, evil and disease.

This is not quite the end of the story. The IT tech lasted a couple of more years until at the same time of year he had a very bad experience with the same manager. It was a case of true Phariseeism, his boss had tied up a heavy and inappropriate burden on him and refused to lift a finger to help him with it. He could not stand it anymore. He left.

Also, remember those volunteers I had met early on on this journey? In between these two stories, one of them had gone on a trip to a closed country in Africa to see one of VOM’s projects up close. It was a building project that had gone astray. He arrived to find that the man VOM had hired to manage the project had no idea whatsoever what he was doing. He had spent a large amount of the total allocated funds just to build a foundation. And that foundation was several times bigger than the final building was supposed to be. My friend told me he had to improvise and figure out how to use part of the foundation and salvage the project so at least something could be built. He changed it to a now smaller building than originally planned and had to leave the project to be finished by the same construction manager. It was quite likely that the building was never finished and the project ended up being wasted donor money, but you will not see a word about that in their polished up and white-washed regular mailers.

Another story that I heard in between those first two, was the story of how Tom White’s personal secretary got fired. VOM had a policy where when really big checks came in, they were supposed to get special treatment. So instead of being handled like every other small check directly through the accounting department, they were sent upstairs to Tom’s personal secretary. At some point in time, the secretary stopped processing them at all and instead merely dropped them into a folder in the back of her filing cabinet to collect mold. One day a large stash of old checks totaling a very tidy sum was found by someone else. Most of the checks had gone way past the standard 6 month expiration date for checks so this had been going on for years, including the time I was there. They fired her, but I still wonder what transpired between Tom and this lady that would get her so pissed off that she would want to screw this “ministry” in this fashion?

Something else you will never read about is the saga of Pastor Joel who worked as a director at VOM and as a worship Pastor at a local Wesleyan Church. I found out about it shortly after my exile. It appears Pastor Joel started having an affair with his secretary at VOM. He ended up getting fired from both gigs and then divorced his wife so that he could marry the secretary. These events occurred not too long before I came to town. My friend who had so graciously offered to convert their database for nothing started dating Pastor Joel’s ex-wife. So I heard about it from her point of view and from the tech’s too. The tech told me that management had suspected that Pastor Joel had sex inside his office with his secretary. Their solution was to remove the regular doors off of all the offices and replace them with glass. If they had only chosen to do the same thing regarding transparency to their donors, I would not have to be writing this whole testimony down now. VOM buried this situation. I believe that charities owe it to those donors who pay the bills to let them know not just spin about what is going right for them, but also what is not. There should have been some transparency about this moral failure but obviously there never was about either this or anything else immoral that happened inside the organization. They could not hide Tom’s dead body, although they probably wished he had killed himself somewhere else.

One final story from inside the office. While I was in the office, one day two attractive, college age women showed up working inside. I found out that they had just been hired by the accounting department. They were there just a few months and then they both were suddenly gone having been hired and fired as a pair. The tech told me a story of what had happened. He said that the two were very loose, flirting with men in the office including him. One day the two made him a proposition that he responded to with basically a “if I entertained that thought for a second, my wife would kill me” response. He walked away. Soon after that, one of the ladies became pregnant out of wedlock and they both were promptly fired.

In summary, the big lesson I have learned from all this is how much I should hate the worldly and devilish practice of corporate image polishing. The very root of deception in our world is the polished and skilled liar who knows how to spin facts and white-wash what is, in reality, a septic tank. People pretend the septic does not stink. The image is a lie. The reality is something very much uglier than a dozen or so employees and volunteers standing outside the building during break time smoking. I have no doubt that many more stories exist that I have never heard about. I no longer think that merely giving Mammon to organizations is true charitable work. I see being a donor now as a two-edge sword that has blessing on the top side and cursing on the bottom. Give the Mammon to a good person and it still may end up doing great harm without excessive caution and care be exercised from start to finish. Give it to someone evil and you have just funded Satan’s work on this planet. The love of money really is a root of every kind of evil.

Mr. Jesperson

Related Reading: Letter by Michael Wurmbrand exposing corruption in VOM